I’m so grateful you said that my dreams weren’t possible…
I can still feel the gut wrenching emotion when it was said that my dreams weren’t possible.
I was asked “So, what is it that you long to do?”
“Help teenagers, I think” I replied gingerly.
“Oh no…” I should focus my attention elsewhere. There was no money in that. It would be very difficult – unless you targeted the very rich, of course. Schools have no money.
My heart, my stomach and my belief nose dived, down into the abyss.
It burned. Deep, in my stomach.
I did everything I could to hold back tears, burning, burning tears of pain.
This wasn’t just a ‘Someone is telling me I can’t do what I want’, this was a message from my inner child, my inner voice, my intuition, MY SOUL, that what was being said – wasn’t true and wasn’t to be believed.
(It wasn’t just one person either; I got told time and time again, in direct and in subtle ways; that what I was proposing to do, was ludicrous!)
But I was so vulnerable; I was so low in confidence. I had no clue about being self-employed, marketing, ANYTHING really. I was *just*a teacher, and a miserable and not very good one at that, I thought.
I was no where near a place where I could trust this (less than subtle) message from my intuition. At this time, I only trusted external advice; I had no faith in my self or in my intuition; my gut feelings, I didn’t trust myself one jittery jot!
So, if you know me, I followed the advice I was given, but it really didn’t work out, and so I bravely changed course – and in a nutshell – it all worked out.
But it only all worked out because of that gut wrenching message from my intuition.
It never went away – it kept on burning away every time I was out of alignment with my REAL dreams.
It made me stand up and listen. This feeling made itself very clear – “Stop doing this Kathryn and follow your dreams!”
I am so grateful for this. I’m so grateful I was told not to follow my dreams; because it showed me how important it was to follow them.
It showed me the true importance of my dreams – what is sometimes called your soul mission, or souls purpose.
And I’m so God damn thankful for this. I’m so thankful for the power and the strength and the people and the visions and the inspirations I received telling me “Your dreams are possible” too!
But my message and purpose for writing this is far from an underhand or sly “Thanks, but look what I achieved” kind of vibe. I really am truly thankful for the people telling me I couldn’t do it. Really I am. Honestly and truthfully. Sincerely and transparent. It gave me the determination and motivation to NOT give up. They helped me to get to know my inner voice, my intuition, my soul – and if that isn’t a true gift, I don’t know what is.
My message and purpose for writing this is:
DON’T GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS! FIND PEOPLE WHO BELIEVE IN YOU AND HANG OUT WITH THEM -AND ONLY THEM.
DONT GIVE UP, EVEN IF PEOPLE TELL YOU YOU CANT DO SOMETHING.
DON’T GIVE UP, ESPECIALLY IF YOU GET A GNAWING, PAINFUL ACHE WHEN YOU GET TOLD YOU CAN’T FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS.
(Sorry for the shouty capitals)
Get to know that ache, that pain, listen in, tune in and follow its guidance.
My message: If something feels wrong, it probably is. And you ‘gut’ feeling is right. Trust yourself, trust it. Try these affirmations:
I am open to divine guidance always. I am in connection with my inner child. I am open to messages and signals. I am empowered when I am in connection with my passions. I manifest my dreams and goals.
All is well.